Not Forgotten

I’ve gotten back into therapy — this is a good thing. It is likely that she’s going to recommend anti-depressants (she’s already broached the subject once, and we’ve only had two sessions). This is my own (and thus highly biased) observation, but I’m a “stable depressive”. I’m depressed a lot, but internalize most of it (along with my emotions) in order to still maintain a relatively functional capacity with the rest of the world. Personally, I’m of the opinion that it’s a fairly common situation in New England, a place that is traditionally pretty closed about sharing their emotions.

I’ve been getting treated for Lyme Disease for the past month, and finally got off the medication a week or so ago… this is a temporary reprieve while I work at finding a Lyme-Literate doctor in the Seattle area that is willing to continue the treatments. Both of my parents have been excellent resources for this, as has a doctor back east that was willing to do a phone consultation. From the phone interview combined with other data, he considers it highly likely that I’ve had this for quite some time, and will need further treatment, extended over several months. This is not happy-making, but better to treat it and be done than to continue to float with it.

I’ve been trying to do what I can to hype up UberCon, getting people interested and talking about it. This has been taking a back seat to other things that are more immediate and more important, though, like school. Other important (but still UberCon related) things have been working to finalize Penny Arcade’s attendance at this February’s UberCon III. I’ve been frustrated by lack of response on their end, and frustrated again by impatience (justifiably, to an extent: the longer we have to wait to buy tickets, the costlier they potentially are) from Kevin. It left me feeling very much like I was stuck in the middle and really not doing anyone any good, let alone myself.

Good news now: we bought Mickey a car on Wednesday. It’s a burgundy 1998 Subaru Forester with 50,000 miles on it. For the next 5 and a half years, we’ll be paying at least a little under $300 a month. Could have been worse, though: Mickey has exceptionally good credit (her father trained her well in the ways of financial responsibility), which meant they were more than willing to work WITH us to find ways to get it lower. The bad side of all this is we have no idea what’s happening for work come January (her current gig ends just after Christmas), so money is going to be REALLY tight for a little bit. Hopefully one of these resumes I’ve been sending out will pay off sooner than later, as getting that second income stream into the house (even if it’s just a 20 hour a week gig for dirt pay) would seriously help. It also means that doing much in the way of Christmas gifts for people is going to have to wait. The new computer is definitely on indefinite hold, until things improve financially: this is my decision, and I’m not hesitating in making it… still sucks, though.

I haven’t pointed to it in a while, but any of you folks out there that read this and feel like sending a wedding present, or a birthday present, or a present, it would sorely be appreciated right now. The Paypal link at the bottom of the page would probably be the best bet.

There are other things that have been going on, other big nasty stresses that have been overwhelming me the past few weeks, but I’ve complained enough. It is, unfortunately, a part of life, and bitching about it really does nothing more than let you vent some frustration: it doesn’t actually solve anything. Those of you who might be reading this and wondering why I haven’t responded to you recently, I hope this at least begins to explain what’s up. I’ll try to get back to you sometime in the next few days. And hopefully back to posting regularly sometime in the next week.